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I feel that

I live my life

Like I am in a movie

Where I want to say things

To create action

And drama

I do things in a split second

'Coz its fun to do it

But I don't realize

How it would affect me in the long run

I make rash decisions

For a one second enjoyment

Its not like words

Don't have meanings for me

Its not like

I want to hurt others

Its not like

I am dishonest

I just make bad decisions

Without realizing the consequences

Assuming that everything is going to be fine

But it rarely is

I need to change this

I need to take a step back

And tell myself that

Action based on a one second thought and

Action based on countless hours of thinking

Have an equal effect and consequence for all

I need to change this

I need to take a step back

Take a moment to think through things

And not say that

Let me enjoy in the moment

Will think of the consequences later

Indeed that makes life less fun

Indeed that makes life more difficult

But at least it might help me

Commit lesser mistakes

Maybe I am being immature

Maybe I am being scared

That's why I run away

From thinking about the result

Of my actions

And just do the action

I'm like a drug addict

Whose mind is fogged up

And who takes the drug

For a split second enjoyment

Without thinking about the

Result of the action

And then suffers

Life long with the

Result of the action